I've been putting off this post. I'm not sure how to say any of this.
For starters.....................................................Cody Simpson came out with his new EP "Coast to Coast."
You'll be surprised to learn that was the highlight of my week despite everything else that happened, because this was a busy week.
I got a job that pays almost $20 an hour thanks to my bestie.
I got a stomach virus.
I almost got a B on my first college test. It was biology and I was very excited.
I failed my second college test. Math was created by satan.
I hung out with my crush and friends.
We lost by one touch down at our football game.
I don't have school on Thursday or Friday.
I have cramps.
I have two house sitting jobs for some extra cash and was given a cookie cake as a pay day. I danced.
And here we are.
Oh and Blue and his girlfriend broke up.
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My thoughts exactly.
One of my good friends plays lacrosse, and last year during practice a girl was hit the leg or head or something and proceeded to lay on the ground crying, and screaming "IT'S HAPPENING!"
No one ever learned exactly what was "happening" but I died laughing at the story.
When I recieved the news that Blue is single for the first time since October....don't ask how I know....I was driving. Then the rest is blank. I was in shock, and in tears, and dancing of course. So not exactly blank.
BUT!
I'm not going to do anything. Yet.
Only because I don't really know what to do persay...Help. Now it's dealing with all the stupid emo statuses he's posting about how sad and blah he is. HOW YOU LIKE THEM APPLES BUDDY!
As you can see I'm enjoying this. I don't feel like God is telling me to go back to him right away. Which I'm fine with because I have no idea what in bloody hell I'm doing. Excuse my french but this is ridiculous. It's like you speak Blue's name and I freeze and sparks start flying out of my head like a robot, and my brain malfunctions. How did this happen to me? Sheesh I thought I was the normal one but I'm as crazy as a hobo talking to his shoe.
But I can say that instead of feeling like deep dookie, I feel like singing.
I have new music on my iPod, two of those artists being Cody Simpson and Adele.
I would have LOVED Adele's "21" around graduation time when I was crying in the bathtub.
I felt like this:
"When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,
I had no idea of the state we were in..."
Boohoo.
I fee like this:
Stupid dog face but I giggled.
Cody Simpson knows exactly how to make me feel better. He can sing, dance, or just stand there and I would pee my pants.
I'm so weird but it's what girls like me do. I bought his EP on iTunes for $4.96 and then went to Target and bought the same album only because it has two bonus tracks on it. It was only a dollar more and I am so so so so so happy I purchased it.
There's this song called "Crash" and it's adorbs. Like it's so cute I can't even function. (I've been watching too much Kardashian's.) Basically it's about him being totally in "like" with this girl and is completely taken over by her because everything about her is "out of this world." Only he doess't know if she even knows he exists. Now if I were 14 like this kid I would be on a one way trip to Australia to find him and live happily ever after, but I'm stuck her 18 and waiting on this kid who works at a mexican place, who doesn't know I exist. Oh Cody how I feel your pain.
In the song he continues to say how amazing it would be if the girl was on the same page. If she "crashed" into him he would be sent to the moon. Holla.back.at.that.
So here is how I feel now:
"Late at night
When it's dark
And the world's asleep
From the bottom
Of my heart
You're the one and only
Face in my mind that i see
Think im fallin'
Fallin' hard
Had me right from the start
And your smile
Takes me up
I've been walking
On the moon
Like an astronaut, yeah
If you sent me flyin'
Up in the sky
Imagine what happens
When two stars collide
So out of this world
So out of this earth
But tell me first
Wonder if
Does she even notice me?
Sometimes I dream
How I think It'll be
She'd just crash into,
crash into me, Crash into
Crash into me
Crash into,
Crash into me... (Oh girl)"
Only want Blue to feel this way. It's his turn.
I'm sitting here listening to "Crash" over and over because it makes me happy, and the reason I'm not pouncing like a lion on this situation is because it's not time. I'll know, but right now it's best to keep things put. More time to breathe, and get my act together.
So no more of this:
"Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,
Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,
When will I see you again?"
Adele can sing her heart out all she wants but I want this:
"Crash, crash baby
Crash into me
No if's or maybe's
Ain't nothing to it
Just crash crash baby
Take a chance with me
Let's get crazy
Crash, crash
Just crash into me
Girl, as hard as you can
Just like in neverland
Girl send me flyin'
No I ain't comin' back again
I can't imagine this
Can you imagine this?
Come on just crash into me
Wonder if
Does she even notice me?
Sometimes I dream
How I think It'll be
She'd just crash into,
crash into me, Crash into
Crash into me
Crash into,
Crash into me... (Oh girl)"
Watch us reunite over a finder binder. Haha get it? Crash?
Anyhooooooo I'm ready when he is, because when that time comes it will be right. Honestly, I can't imagine what it will be like. I'm sure I'll fly into space like Cody because everything about this kid sends me to another world. Gag. :)
Listent to Cody:)
http://youtu.be/zcNlBz_Ld6I
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